Finally I have the etheric forces back to continue the study group after an illness that forced me to rest for a month.

                            the first trial was the fire trial...........after writing about that there was a huge fire that swept over the mountains here.....and left blackened remains.......but later on the horticulturist told me the fire lilys will come up now, (beautiful red lilies that emerge after a fire;) and thus it was when the goetheanum was burnt down, a new building was born out of that.

                    for many people, just trying to survive on this planet is a fire trial. the fruits of the fire rial are to have courage, self confidence and endurance.

                     you may turn back after the fire trial. you may carry on with life, strengthened from the fire trial. and continue with the next stage of initiation in a future incarnation.

or you may continue to the next stage of initiation.

                                       then a particular system of occult writing is revealed to us.